We and Love!

“…it only matters that you love.”

The most beautiful feeling in the word. However, is love enough for two people? Is love the only feeling people have for each other? What about being soul mates or support to each other or friends, in that case? Surely, we can name a relationship the way we want.

So why do we fear to name it! I wonder…may be we are not sure ourselves.

Well, I fell in love last year. At least I think I did! Well, surely I did. Argh! This is not the point. The point is the feeling…

He made me feel good. As they say, the first love is always special. Yes, it is. No matter how it ends, it is always the perfect relationship, to have that eccentric feeling and the impeccable and magical relationship.

It is perfect, isn’t it? The first touch. The first glance. To smile to each other meaninglessly. The laughter with each other. The first kiss. And the first fight. The passion that comes with the first time is enigmatic. To give in to each other completely. The newfound romance. To be just us! Well, isn’t this what we desire always?

Do what you desire to do.

We desire to be the best for each other, even though the future is bleak.

Then, when the future is sad and hurting, the present becomes a chaos. You think where you went wrong, and reimagine and recreate everything in your mind to find that loose end to tie and to make the past your present again. Well, not all times people are to be blamed; only the circumstances made it look bad, may be.

The past seems like yesterday, then, and yet, you want the future to be like the past. Hell, you want the present to be that magical again. And as they say, first love is the first love is the first love! No one can ever beat that!

Feelings and the past are a deadly combination, and people should believe in a bright tomorrow! 

However, the past gives you beautiful memories. In addition, those memories sometimes hurt.

People might say it is time to move on and to give each other personal space, but what about not moving on with someone else, but to make the circumstances more interesting and endearing for the same person! Isn’t this also a feeling one can have? May be the other person might have moved on, and you might know that and yes, it hurts like hell to be standing on that same place…to be stranded and to see your “world” moving away, but isn’t it about your feelings? Have a different perspective, always.

Yes, feelings are the big words. However, feelings should always make one happy. If loving the same person gives a different perspective to your life, then go for it. And if you think, your future will look good if you had different perspective, then you should go for it. Be true to your feelings and do what your heart wants because in the end it is your life.

Sometimes, yes, I do wish, I acted in different way that time to make the present and the future beautiful. In the end, it is always about what “I” want and desire. Always do what your hearts want even if the world and the people ask and say not to! Love, work, read, breathe on your terms always. 

Always do it how you want to do it. Yes, consult and refer, but take the decision that you always wanted to.

First, it might hurt to be the odd one out, but the result will always make you look back with a smile and you will know you made the right decision. In the end it is always the love, I mean the feelings, that matters!

Moreover, about loving the person when the relationship has already ended? Umm…Will think about later. Still now, the past does make my present look happy…

Well, one thought though, relationships should be crafted with reason and sense also. If the people can’t respect each other then there can be no love as well…

WE and ALONE!!

Own life. Living on my / your own. Being the master of my / your own actions.

Sometime or the other we all want that... We all want to be alone where we and only we are the masters.

‘I like to stay alone.’

Yes, this is one of the dreams that we dream. We like to stay alone not for always but for some time in our life.

I wanted to stay alone meaning away from home. Away from my parent’s protective eyes. At first I wanted to see whether I can live on my own, in a different city, whether I can protect myself and sustain myself. But now, I want to live alone, because, living alone has its own magic. We learn to work on our own, we become independent, and we become disciplined.

In our future place, we have rules. Rules of being alone! Some say rules are made to be broken. But in my heart I don’t want these rules to be broken, however golden the rebel opportunities are... I want the rules to stay... You are stunned to read this, but think, rules are there to make us independent, disciplined individuals. Self-reliance is the key to success.

Coming back to ‘alone’. Yes, this word is strong in every sense. Some say alone means there is no one to go to, no friends, no fun life, etc, etc. And some say alone is all about being for your own self, dreaming for yourself, living for yourself. And yes, thinking like this, everything is right about this, it makes me confident!

Alone! Hostel Life! When I think about it, I am scared, I start crying, I get emotional! I dread being alone!

But, why should I be emotional? Why should I dread?

Being here with my family was a usual life.
And then this life will be a routine life.
After settling down, that would be my regular life.
I shout it to myself knowing my heart won’t understand.

I think about my family.
My dreams say family is with you always.
I wonder whether I will make moments for them!
Thoughts say love will always make time.

Being in a known city.
Knowing an unknown city.
Looking back to my life.
Searching my life ahead!

Leaving behind the warmth.
Accepting the new care.
In love with retrospect’s.
Understanding the prospects.

It’s like magic.
Being free. Being able.
It’s like moving forward.
Being known. Being recognized.

Being alone has its perks, but I won’t let it bog me down. Being alone is my new routine life. http://www.manishbengani.com/2013/06/in-love-with-routine-life.html

At first it might not be in the way we want, but in time it will be. If our choice is being alone, we should work on that, live our life, achieve our dreams. Family is always there. We are always there.